And Yet...

Halloween is tomorrow and yet...
im too sad to be happy
Im halfway accepted into college and yet...
im still nervous as hell
He told me I was pretty and yet...
im ugly as can be
Everyone sees my smile and yet...
its slowly coming undone
We have been over for how long now and yet...
he is still in my mind
I need to tell my secret to you few faithful readers and yet...
i keep it bottled up inside

Alone At My Windowsill

Alone at my windowsill
staring at the world
Alone at my windowsill
I watch the worm crawl from the bird
Alone at my windowsill
I watch everyone else live their lives
Alone at my windowsill
as each day passes
Alone at my windowsill
I'm missing out on life
Alone at my windowsill
I'm growing old with age
Alone at my windowsill
I slowly fade away

Insults

I've never really noticed just how many insults I hear about various people throughout each day. As a human I'm guilty of it to not proud of it mind you but still guilty. It makes me sad and also extremely disappointed.
Insults are everywhere. In day to day conversations, in television shows, in magazines. Insults are in the sneer I get at lunchtime, and the giggles that clutch at me in the hallways. We are the cows of conversation, grazing in a field of insults, gnawing the the latest gossip.
....Sorry sometimes I try to make a point and all that comes out is pure gibberish. I was just thinking about insults, gossip, and lies. Whatever I'm over it now...

Essays

I'm writing this essay for my AP English class on the life and poems of Emily Dickinson, and all the while I cant help but think....is this essay in any way going to improve my life? Granted my grade in English may matter (though not to me)....but when you really think about it...probably not. It wouldnt bother me so much if the paper didnt have to be 8 pages long. I mean really theres only so much you can cover about one one person.
Sorry this essay has just got me a tad stressed out, I really didnt need this essay on top of everything else I have going on in my life. Honestly the only thing that is keeping me semi-sane right now is the fact that Halloween is on saturday!! :D Another thing is......oh crap never mind I'm late for class....sorry
Until next time- Lia

Introductions

Well, I suppose introductions are in order. To anyone who may be reading this, you may refer to me as Lia. I'd just like to point out that I have never kept a blog before so this blog may at times seem random, unorganized, and crazy. This blog is nothing more than a place for me to vent, dream, create, express, and speak my mind without having to worry about being judged. No real names will be used in my blog nor will town or city names etc. I know people creep on the Internet-case in point. So......
My name as I said before is Lia. I am 17, and am hoping that people find my blog interesting, funny, truthful, inspiring, and hopeful. If at anytime you have a question please feel free to ask. Im open to any questions.
I am also hoping this blog will make me a little less crazy, make my head a little less full, make my thoughts a little less dark, and my life a little less pointless.

Until next time-LIA