I was having a fairly decent day yesterday. I got plenty of sleep. I had gone out the night before and had myself a good time. I got my errands and chores done. I cleaned my house and got more music downloaded to my Ipod. Paris came over she was having parent problems and needed someones advice so I felt honored that she picked me. I was expecting a phone call from my new friend Hope who I was excited to talk to. But then my father called. He always call my cell when he wants to speak with my brothers. I listened to them talk about Christmas and how school was going. I listened to them talk about football and when they were going to spend time with eachother again. Thats all it took for me to fold within myself and become bitter and angry.
I will NEVER understand what I did to him. Why is it that he doesnt love me? How can he look right through me like I am no one? How can you not love all of your children? I will forever wonder if I am good enough for him. Maybe I just wasnt a good enough daughter. Shit- maybe Im just not a good enought person.
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Your father what we call a dick. ^-^
ReplyDeleteTell him to look it up. And If he needs help doing so. Tell him to give me a call.
Im sure I can help. =P
You did nothing wrong as a daughter. Know that.
You did all you could, and now its your dads turn to grow a pair.
And hun....That may NEVER happen. But thats OKAY.
Its okay. Because Theres others who love you. Theres other who will be there for you more than he ever could.
And thats OKAY because that is your fathers own descion.
Not yours.
SO stop putting yourself down. And start seeing his love was never worth it anyway.
I promise you. He has nothing to offer you.
Hope-