I lay shivering
Alone on the floor
Wondering why
Why am I so cold-hearted
Why do I hate myself so much
Why cant I accept anothers love
I put a handful of pills in my mouth
Waiting for the pain to fade away
But I continue to wonder why
Why does my father hate me
Why cant I be the daughter my mother wants
Why cant I be the sister my brothers need
Why cant I be the friend my friends deserve
I swallow 24 more pills part of my mind still wondering
Why am I here
Who is it that wants me around
Why does my heart beat
No one cares if it stops
I down the rest of the bottle before all my mind fades to black.
My fingers grow numb and my eyelids droop. I can hear my heart begin to slow but I cant help but wonder in my last few seconds of life
Will anyone wonder why?
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Beautiful.
ReplyDeleteYou make death...suicide seem so beautiful. So welcoming.
Your poems are grace and you are the master. More beautiful than them all.
Hope-